Woke up in the morning by the morning bus downstairs. Kids going to school with their uniform and big bags. Walked to the toilet, with my towel in my hand. Yes, she is going to have her beancurd later on! Called Angeline to remind her on it. (: Thanks again!
Changed into workwear and as usual, drove to work through the songs she used to love. Saw a cockroach while warming up my car, remembered the way she screamed when she saw one just on the carpet under her seats. I jumped too that time. Yes, I am afraid of it. But always act man in front of her. But she doesn't even believe that.

Pass by pandan reservoir daily, thats her favourite reservoir! Flashbacks with her, wenhan and angeline there not long ago. It was work again. Committed mistakes these couple of days. Errors after errors. Today, I am not gg to be like that again, i told myself. Saw gf photo on how happy she is eating the beancurd. Glad that she is smiling. But soon, my whole world came crashing down like a fallen UNO STACKO.

"She wants you to give up this relationship"

My phone dropped. Tears flowed. Again. The mood was so down that I went to the toilet straightaway and stayed there for the next half an hour. Everything went blank. My days ahead, my plans and the promises we shared. I couldn't believe that it all ended just like that.

Went back to work with teary eyes and I just couldnt concentrate on my work. I am dealing with lens, so lots of people is waiting for my consignment to them at the hospital. I couldnt afford to make a silly mistake. I am helping so many people at work but who is going to be there for me now? Will gf know how I feel now. Very very devastating.

Looked at the clock and it was 2pm. Past my lunchtime. I just don't feel hungry nor thirsty. Kept thinking and thinking, have I lose it all?

Went to houseviewing with brother at CCK after work, still okay. Not bad, saw the open concept kitchen that gf love when she said at Sisi house. She will love this house too, i guess. Met up with wenhan over at his house voiddeck and chat. I am feeling cold. Its like draining my energy off totally. Eat something jason, said wenhan. Eat well and wait for her return, she will want you to be good too!

Told him, there's nothing I want from her all these years even now, zhi dan yuan ta hui xiang.
Be it with me or from now, she got to think of the consequences after doing anything. I just couldn't stop thinking about her. Never.

Went to Yewtee for some food. Remember yaoyao, gf? (If you are reading this)
Didnt see her there today. Its the same old auntie selling ban mian and I ordered a bowl.
We used to come here for late dinner after gf class with wx. Remembered, saba fish.
Went back after a short chat with them. Was listening to this song for the whole day,
Lee Yu Chun - Ai De Tai Sha
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=iEjrTRmikEU

This is the hardest obstacle we have met. I believe we can overcome this storm after so many thick and thin we went through all these years. And here I wanna say, only if you come back, our life will be norm again. Jiayou, gf, you want to be back to xiao shou too. Be yourself.

waiting....... .. (To be continued)