The last entry, my final piece.

Just because you are not in my life anymore, doesn't mean the memories is not in my heart.
It's impossible to forget a love that have given me so much joy or has caused me so much pain but that doesn't mean moving on is impossible.






You are born without me and can live happily and fruitfully without me too, I know. Erasing you from my mind is easy but erasing you from my heart is another damn thing. No matter how painful our past love was, be brave and smile.




Look forward to tomorrow, for someone is there looking out for you.




I have decided to move on with my life with someone whom I have been wishing for so long. This Sunday will mark the start of another chapter in my life and a day I will remember for my life too.




My proposal date.




From then, I will keep the previous chapter and memories  with you closed and well kept in my heart. Your smiles, cries, laughter, tears, joys, sorrows and whines, I will never forget each of them too. I will never ever forget you, my buddy, my best friend, my soul mate.




I sincerely hope that you will find your true love soon and get settled down happily.
Thank you for everything you have given me. Your family too, I wish them all healthy and happy always.






Signing Off,
Sleepy

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=fT-4HBIuEFA

妳曾說不想有天讓我知道
妳對他　有那麼好
妳說會懂 我的失落
不是靠寬容 就能夠解脫

我以為我出現的時候剛好
妳和他　正說要分開
我以為妳　己對他不再期待
不縱容他　再給妳傷害

我以為我的溫柔
能給妳整個宇宙
我以為我能全力
填滿妳感情的缺口
專心陪在妳左右
彌補他一切的錯
也許我太過天真
以為奇蹟會發生

我以為終究妳會慢慢明白
他的心 已不在妳身上
我的關心 妳依然無動於衷
我的以為 只是我以為

他讓妳紅了眼眶
妳卻還笑著原諒
原來妳早就想好
妳要留在誰的身旁
我以為我夠堅強
卻一天天的失望
少給我一點希
希望就不是奢望

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=qtgEpDKMrdc

终于找到借口 趁着醉意上心头
表达我所有感受
寂寞渐浓 沉默留在舞池角落
你说的太少或太多
都会让人更惶恐

谁任由谁放纵 谁会先让出自由
最后一定总是我
双脚悬空 在你冷酷热情间游走
被侵占所有还要笑着接受

我嫉妒你的爱气势如虹
像个人气高居不下的天后
你要的不是我 而是一种虚荣
有人疼 才显得多么出众

我陷入盲目狂恋的宽容
成全了你万众宠爱的天后
若爱只剩诱惑 只剩彼此忍受
别再互相折磨
因为我们都有错
推开苍白的手 推开苍白的厮守
管你有多么失措
别再叫我 心软是最致命的脆弱
我明明都懂却仍拼死效忠

我嫉妒你的爱气势如虹
像个人气高居不下的天后
你要的不是我 而是一种虚荣
有人疼 才显得多么出众

我陷入盲目狂恋的宽容
成全了你万众宠爱的天后
若爱只剩诱惑 只剩彼此忍受
别再互相折磨
因为我们都有错

如果有一天爱不再迷惑
足够去看清所有是非对错
直到那个时候 你在我的心中
将不再被歌颂 把你当作天后
不会再是我

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=T5GsGyro9tw

Nice nice nice!

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=XfI5DwNj9oc

李佳薇 煎熬

Suffering. One of the most gross MV i've seen. But teach me alot of things!
Be strong!

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=hH5ZecYkrXo

張惠妹‧我最親愛的‧

Tears flowed again  .. ... . hope you are well girl.

痴痴地　想了多少夜　我還是不了解
是什麼讓我們今天會分別
反正夢　都是太匆匆
反正愛　只能那麼濃
心與感情　讓它粉碎　飄散在風中

只是為何　當初妳是不聽所有
紛紛擾擾流言之中漫天風雨
妳會選擇了我
只是為何　如今我們不顧一切
追求真愛堅持底下苦盡甘來
妳會放棄了我

再說妳也不會懂　心再痛妳能做什麼
不再將自己深鎖　錯了又錯

守住妳的承諾太傻　只怪自己被愛迷惑
說過的話已不重要　可是我從不曾忘掉
守住妳的承諾太傻　只怪自己被愛迷惑
醉過的心哪裡去找　對著滿滿空虛回憶
怎麼逃
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=eF5FxQ3YdYU

Lawson - Learn To Love Again

That you and I could learn to love again
After all this time
Maybe that is how I knew you were the one
That you could still believe in me again
After all our trials
Maybe that is how I knew you were the one?

One of my 2013 favourites.

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=irw3IbjP3vQ

Girl: What do you see in the future?
Guy: You.
Guy: What about you?

Girl ran away, smiling...

After which, the guy met with an accident.

The answer to that guy was, you, too.
Yup, he heard it, in the heaven, blessing you with all the cares.....

What hurts the most
Was being so close
And havin' so much to say
And watchin' you walk away
And never knowin'
What could've been
And not seein' that lovin' you
Is what I was tryin' to do

Rascal Flatts - What Hurts The Most

Love and relationship is not about appearance or actions in front of others.
It's about the feeling behind close door when no one is around,
when the two of you look at each other, does you both feel really happy
to have found the other parties. No maybe, it's a yes or no.

It's about the feeling deep inside you. The mutual feelings between the two.

Have you been asking yourself:
Is this relationship what you really want?
You am tired but you don't know what the road in front of you?
Or is there another guy/girl who suits you better?

You might feel the relationship is right but you don't know what's on his/her mind?

It's time for a change.

Relationship is about finding a lifetime partner.
You can change for now but tolerance is not freeflow.
Are you being yourself? Or being shadowed by what he/she wants?

The only thing that makes a relationship work is,

Satisfaction. 知足. 知足常乐!

If both parties can understand what the above means, that's enough.
Being happy of what you have is really more than enough for a relationship to sustain.
If you compare, complain, comment or start any commotions,
what's the point of being with him/her?

Some may find Z not good enough.
But some is more than happy to have Z.
There are alot of singles out there who
wish to have be attached and own what you have.

Really depends on how you wants to see things and be happy with it.

What's an overseas trip without you there?
Everything is all about you you you you you.
Been thinking and thinking and ... thinking. What a decision to make.
Will you really love me deeply and crazily till
you can forget who you are and just love me madly?

休息是為了走更長的路 你就是我的旅途 都是因為你 我一直漫步

想要跟你一起走到最後 但我遺失了地圖 誰給誰束縛

誰比誰辛苦 愛到深處才會領悟


好的事情 最後雖然結束 感動十分 就有十分滿足

謝謝你 是你陪我走過那些路 痛 是以後無法再給你幸福

好的事情 也許能夠重複 感動時分 就算紛紛模糊

不要哭 至少你和我記得很清楚 愛 是為彼此祝福

想要跟你一起走到最後 但我遺失了地圖 誰給誰束縛

誰比誰辛苦 愛到深處才會領悟

好的事情 最後雖然結束 感動十分 就有十分滿足

謝謝你 是你陪我走過那些路 痛 是以後無法再給你幸福

好的事情 也許能夠重複 感動時分 就算紛紛模糊

不要哭 至少你和我記得很清楚 愛 是為彼此祝福

不要哭 至少你和我記得很清楚 愛 是為彼此祝福

Alot have changed on my car.
My exhaust is back to stock. silent and smooth.
My car is with tinted glass now. New player makes the interior nicer.
Have changed my engine mounting too.
Added bigger daylights on the front bumper after taking out the old small ones. Audi lookalike.
Electric cabling is all done. My car is super healthy now, as good as new.
Gonna polish my car soon to make it like brand new paint. (:
I will keep the car for as long as I can.
Everything can change. But not our names on it. It's still there.
I've promise no matter what, I will leave it there, not forever but as long as I can.

Many ask me, why dont wanna change car?
My answer is, not needed to change, would rather save the money. Haha.
$900/mth for installments is not alot.
But no matter how many $900s, it wont buy me any memories.
It has all the memories of us in there. Too much memories.
Can't bear to part with it.

I was very busy with events coming up this month.
Wish your mum a happy happy birthday! (: 5th Dec. I didn't forget!

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=w5hYlMPqivw

The longer I listen to this song, the nicer it gets.

信 - 火燒的寂寞

I can still remember the smiles you had.
the times you wanted to pinch me when I say something funny.
Only the happy times surface in my mind, even though we got many sad memories.

I would even smile to myself while driving,
before sleep and see things around that reminds me of us.

I hope you are too, really. Smiling and doing well.

To crush on someone take seconds.
To woo someone can take weeks.
To fall in love will take months.
To trust someone will take years.
To let go and forget someone you love will take, forever.

I am still surprise, between our 5 years and him, you chose him instead.
Instead of hurting him, you chose to hurt me instead.
Instead of telling him you still love me, you told me you can't hurt him.
Instead of understanding me and talk everything out,
you told him everything and shut me out.

the last few weeks with you, it was sweet.
times i help u applying creams, bought dinner for you and quietly sitting there while u munch off.

Sitting there seeing you text him, knowing you meeting him,
knowing you have started a relationship without really ending this one,
I have learnt what all guys can't do and will never do. Tolerance and giving in. (:

I guess I will never have the strength or ability to do it again for someone else.. .

285 days  without you around beside me;
The sad thing is, I can't love you openly anymore and we can't turn back time.
The happy thing is, even if you shattered my heart into pieces,
I will still quietly love you and wish you well with the small broken pieces.

3 more days. my life could have been so different if you have treasured our relationship more and how i wish I could hold on for longer .. hope you are well. (:

9 more days. How I really wish it could have been.

Mohombi - Letting Go

I miss you, do you?

I MISS YOU .. . . DO YOU?

Hope you like the drawing and everything.

Went for late night movie with gf at Cineleisure.
Catched The Wedding Diary.
A funny and touching movie. A must watch for couples.
Treasure your love ones before they are gone.

When she saw the drawing blocks and brushes in my car boot..

gf: wa,why got all these?
gf: preparing for who? haha.
me: nothing, buying for my brother de.
gf: oh okay, sure anot?
me: yaaa.

I have given you all that I can for the past years except this.

Happy Valentine's Day...

Sketch and painted this, while waited the whole night for her text.
My heart is colder than my freezer, I guess.

From her to me. Appreciated. (:

Haagen-Daaz at Holland Village

倔 强 的 以 为 我 真 的 能 改 变 你
看 你 装 无 辜 的 眼 神 　 我 很 窒 息
难 道 你 没 有 看 见 　 看 见 我 对 你 的 好
还 是 你 忘 了 　 那 些 数 不 清 的 爱 情 轨 迹

你 说 我 傻 　 傻 在 爱 上 只 懂 爱 自 己 的 人

我 说 你 傻 　 傻 在 爱 他 你 的 眼 睛 骗 不 了 人

我 们 都 傻 　 傻 在 为 一 段 没 有 未 来 的 爱 情 付 出

还 在 期 待 会 有 奇 蹟 出 现

你 说 我 傻 　 傻 在 爱 上 没 有 感 情 的 分 身

我 说 你 傻 　 傻 在 爱 他 就 固 执 的 奋 不 顾 身

我 们 都 傻 　 傻 在 宁 愿 被 牺 牲 也 不 愿 放 弃 天 真

还 在 期 待 会 有 奇 蹟 出 现

还 在 期 待 会 有 奇 蹟 出 现

Last weekend, she was over at malacca for her company trip.
3 days was like forever, seriously.
While she was there...
gf: hey, i bought soo many things and got something for you too!
me: haha okay, take care of urself uh. (:
me: dont drink too much if drinking and dont sleep too late.
gf: okay, see you tomolo when i am back. (:
Just some messages, makes me feel she is just right beside me.
Spend the weekends mostly with my buddies and it's CH birthday today.
Had a dinner treat from him at Yishun.
Oh ya! On sunday, she was real tired after her trip, get on to bed after her bathe.
exhausted.
Me? I did a mini surprise for her.
Went to Kembagan to get her favourite Kidney Mee Sua while she is sleeping away.
Remember before she left, we went there and it was closed?
Coincidentally, while I was driving back with a hand
holding the bowl of hot mee sua, she called me..
gf: where are you uh?
me: driving back. hahas.
gf: I am hungry, stomach empty. (:
gf: want some meaty stuff. okay?
me: wait till I am back, den decide again okay?
gf: hahahaa, hao de.
SHE WAS REAL HAPPY TO SEE THE BOWL OF MEE SUA AFTER THAT.
me: see, there's meat, liver, kidney in there. All that you want to eat. (:
gf: yupyup, nice (:
me: so you want anymore meat stuffs?
gf: *shake head* (enjoying her mee sua) hehe.
Some little surprise like this might not cost much time and money,
just for the 15 minutes of happiness she had while eating the foods,
i felt happy too.
Pictures below readers, enjoy..

Some random pictures I took..

GOOD NIGHT READERS.

PICK ME, CHOOSE ME, LOVE ME. I WISH.

When she craves for yakult one night....

gf: I feel like drinking yakult to help my digestion. Hee

me: you will have it right away.

After 5 minutes.. ta-daaaaa.

『没关系』是我最常说的一句...
就让我等 就算我冷 至少我陪着你...

Morning call; tuesday, windy.

545am:

gf: hmm, let me sleep for awhile more ke yi ma? hehe.

me: alright, knew it. Call you again at 6am.go sleep ba.

6am:

gf: so fast 6am le uh?

me: yup, rise and shine. i know u need 15 more mins ya?

gf: YUP! (: can?

me: alright, I wake u up at 615am.

630am:

me: it's 630am, you gonna be late for work and bus uh.

gf: oh okay, I am really waking up le. haha.

640am:

I called her to confirm that she really wakes up.

Guess what, she is still nua-ing on bed. zzz. hahas.

She is really tired i know.

Finally she is awake at 640am.

gf: hmm, sooo tired. guess I am gonna be late again uh.

me: not to worry, let me send you there to the bus.

gf: okay *smiles* I go prepare le!

me: *smiles* too.

As usual, I went over to pick her up at her house and drove her to work.

Yes, she didnt manage to catch the bus,
the traffic super jammed up in the morning!

Maybe was it me, who drove slower den usual,
just to keep her by my side longer?

In the end, I drove her to the office,
her bus arrived while we are still in the jam.

Fated. I hope god is really helping me.

Accompany gf to clinic for an injection after work.

SHE IS A STRONG GIRL THOUGH. After her injection...

me: Is it pain uh?

gf: No! Not at all. The doctor says I am a strong girl loh!
Others find it super pain loh!

me: haha, glad that you are strong. *thumbs up*

Went back to her place for dinner,
heated up all the foods and soup while she is bathing.

She love to heat up all food to the max before her meals so ya.

She used only spoon without fork, unlike me, I need a fork for meals.

She find holding a fork useless while eating at home. Hahas.

Last time, I would say:

" ... haiya, can eat can le, not really cold ma. Let eat ba.."

Now, I would prefer to heat everything up before eating. (:

She had a quarter bowl of rice and me? Half a bowl.

Been some time since I ate in with her at home.

As usual, I would wash the utensils, plates, bowls and pots.

Whatever needs to be washed comes under the water,
with me holding the scrubs.

Had grapes after dinner and accompanied her till she falls asleep.

Before bidding goodbye. ): yes, she bite on my hands before I left.

At least now, I can be with her when she need someone most.

YES, TODAY ITS TUESDAY.

I GOT HER, BEANCURD PUDDING!

For her breakfast tomorrow.

Tuesday is beancurd day. (: hahas.

All right readers, time to sleep.

I just can't get you out of my mind...

Yes, I am still missing her, loving her.

Whatever it is, everything I see or do reminds me of her and us.
What we went through is enormously alot. Our understanding of each other is crazy.
Have you ever think of me and miss our times too? I know you did.
Are you still loving me? I know it's a yes.

Night all.

Its work again tomorrow. First time in my life, I hate going to work. ):

Tell me one day, that all the pains I go through and my waits is all worth while.

Went for zhi bao ji @ clementi today with gf.She has been craving for it since awake. So, I brought her to dine there today.
I tell you, she is damn cute.

me: where to dine tonight, dear?
gf: I feel like eating zi bao ji eh.
me: uh? let me check out the location and opening hours.
gf: *smiles*
me: okay, promised. let go there and eat this evening.

She has been smiling since.

The person who really love you most is the one who never leave you no matter what.

We took afternoon nap before making our way there.
Here is the pictures.

I know why no paper wrap chicken pictures right?
Cus, when we arrive, we were told that it's sold out.
But while having our dinner, someone came and said,
yes! the chef is preparing now and ask for our orders.
We ordered 10 of it. Didnt take pictures of it cus we are busy with the FOODS!

I am happy, that she is eating with her usual self, with hands and mouthful of foods. (:

"Let me fill your stomach, even though the energy use is not on me..."

And yes, yesterday after mahjong at CH house,we went to 126 at Geylang Lorong 17 for supper!

Actually, we wanted to go Kembangan for pig liver mee sua that she love.
That's her favourite. But sadly when we arrive, it's closed till 3rd Febuary. ):

Alright, pictures below.