I didn't know when i am reviving this blog, its about sadness and tears
Got off my bed. Very unusual. Its 6am, my phone isn't on silent. Oh ya, she isn't msging me anymore. No msgs, nothing on my phone. Changing and washing up takes longer time than usual, i am not worried about making her wait for me under the hot sun anymore. Today onward, I am on my own. Saw the clothes she always wanted me to wear and finally, i took it out and wore it today. I dont feel weird wearing it anymore. I used to say, I am not nice on it.... ..

The traffics on the road is hectic, i would usually rush myself to her bus, with her sitting beside me on the pink cushion that she love. I would on her favourite hit while she just sit there indulging in the music. Sometimes, she will just singing along with it. Cute. Journey with her sitting next to me is short and fast. Now, the road seems never ending and long..
With the music she love playing in the background, I looked at the keychain on my car handle and ask, are you missing me too? Not knowingly, I have reach my office. Took my jacket and had a look at our names on the car. Jason Jeline. This is the car with so much memories in it, laughters, tears. A car which accompany us to so many locations and anniversary...

That's our car! I gonna wash it clean every week, i promised myself. 810am, usually i would call her and ask if she reached office. Today, i skipped that. Time has been going too slowly, too slowly for me to pass my time alone. Was engross in my work while I kept her in the back of my brain, she is energetic though, running through my brain every second, every minute.
Soon, it was lunch time. Asked myself again, have she eaten? She must be busy and busy as usual. Usually the next thing after lunch was looking forward to 530pm! Would fetch her from pioneer after her work. Now, how i wish 530pm doesnt come fast. Today, it's a different journey back home. Suddenly, i felt like listening to this song: Blue -If You Come Back. http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=GjFO5zw7hq4&ob=av2e

Tears filled my eyes. Is this really happening to me? I don't believe it though. I still couldn't accept the fact. The song accompanied me till knock off, its raining outside. Wanted to msg her or call her. I was so worried bout her getting into the rain. Tears rolled again. I hold on my phone and put it aside. And yes, the journey back home is everlasting. Went for a jog and bathe, before hopping into the bed after that.
Forgotten about dinner. In my mind, I am closest to you only in my dreams from now.... ...

(To be continued)

If only we could stay together like this, forever.